its been too long...
they think i have a chemical imbalance...
i am of legal age to do... what.... everything but drink and rent a car...
i am writing again... slowly but surely...
i'm very scared for my parents...
i feel like dejavu right now...
my brother is my best friend and i never see him...
i'm going to Oklahoma with my boyfriend and his friends...
i will see my best friend of fourteen years there...
i can't sleep...
i tattoo my heart with sadness as an escape from happiness...
i tattoo my legs to hide my shames and embarrassment....
i love him more than anything....
i should be so happy...
but....


*sigh*